Me, the Samaritan Woman.

This summer has been a roller-coaster ride for me. Some days I see Jesus for who He is and I catch a glimpse of the bigger picture. You know, that one about Jesus and the Gospel and how it changes everything. Then other days I don't see it. I know that it's still there--that my doubt or un-belief or dis-satisfaction surely hasn't changed the reality of truth but it's hard. On these days, I cry a lot and wish that I could either 1) go back to college or 2) talk to Jon (my boyfriend) about it all. But unfortunately while Waco is still there even if I went back it wouldn't be the same and Jon is at camp--completely out of my reach for 6 out of 7 days. I am starting to learn that each day when I wake up I have a choice. I can either trust God or deny Him. When I can't change my circumstances I can either choose to trust or I can choose to show an unbelieving world that I deny the God that I say I commit my whole being to. Those are my only options. Lately, by God's grace I have started to choose that even if I can't see it... I believe that He really is who He says He is. Jesus, my God. 

Today I listend to a podcast about the passage found in John 4 where the samaritan woman meets Jesus at the well.

Imagine with me for a second...

This woman has been married 5 times and is currently living with yet another man but this time he isn't her husband. Perhaps, she's given up on marriage. She is at the well--coming to fetch water... the thing that she knows will satisfy her immediate thirst. She walked the familiar path to the well. She didn't have to ask for directions or second guess her decisions on how to get there. She knew this path-- she had walked it many times in the previous months and years and today was one in the same. She was minding her own business at the well that she came to daily in order to quench her thirst-- to satisfy her longing. Enters Jesus, the Messiah, a Jew. 

I used to always think that when I put myself in this story that I played the role of Jesus and that I needed to reach out to "lowly" people in my own life like Jesus reaches out to the samaritan woman. And I do. But today as I heard this story in a different light I realized something...

I'm that woman. I'm the samaritan woman at the well. Granted, our lives look different but we're more similar than I ever realized. Both sinners, both walking familiar paths in hopes that when we get to the well that we will finally find satisfaction.

When the whole time Jesus is there. Gently saying "Why not ask me for water?" To which we respond, "Well you don't have anything to fetch the water with. So thanks for the offer but it really is okay I got it. I can handle it. I can control my circumstances so that I know for sure that I'll get what I want... what I need." Jesus goes on to let the woman know that what He can offer is living water. The only kind of water that leaves you actually satisfied-- thirsty no more. 

But, I KNOW the path. I KNOW how to work the well. I KNOW that this will give me what I need and want. So, thanks for the offer but I got it.

Then the most amazing part of the story happens. The woman gets a glimpse. A glimpse that this man is the Messiah. He knows her story without her telling it, He knows that she doesn't have a husband and that she is living with a man whom she isn't married to, He knows her every fault and yet says, "Ask me... let me satisfy your thirst". And the woman leaves her pitcher of water there and returns to Samaria to tell of what she had seen. 

She leaves her pitcher of water there. 

What once satisfied her no longer could measure up to the glimpse of Living Water that she recieved. There was no turning back. No matter how familiar the path to the well is she no longer needs it. No matter that she has been married 5 times... she has been forgiven and cleansed by Living Water and the shame? She no longer needs it.

She leaves her pitcher of water. And she runs toward Living Water... 

and she'll thirst no more!

I'm the woman at the well. Me, the Samaritan Woman. The one coming back to the familiar path that leads to the familiar well simply because it's familiar. This is a huge revelation for me and it's backed by an even bigger promise from Jesus.

He is gently urging us to ask HIM. Not for earthly things but for Himself... which He will gladly give. And when we accept the gift of Himself the true Living Water...

we won't be wanting. i will not want. 

What is it that you are searching to satisfy you? If it's marriage... the woman at the well is a pretty clear picture that marriage isn't going to bring you the satisfaction you NEED. Is it a perfect job... it won't bring you the satisfaction you NEED. Is it that one thing you keep coming back to like the well for the samaritan woman? It won't satisfy. May we always remember that these things will.not.satisfy our souls. 

jesus will though. and he wants to. ask him. 

{Why do we settle for water coming out of the ground when we have an endless supply of Living Water at our expense?? }